July 17, 2010 my Auntie Bernadette died.
I got the news from my sister, that was the moment when I didn't answer my Dad's call. I didn't answer it because I don't know what alibi to say.
Last wednesday I had a chat with my dad on the YM and he was telling me to call my grandmother in Bicol because she was sick and dad said "call them NOW" I told him I have no load and maybe tomorrow I get to call her and the rest of the relatives on the phone then tomorrow came my thought was only about school, school and school and so I didnt drop a call. I was actually planning to call them 2 days after dad commanded me but that was the night I received the news from my sister and that was the moment I didn't, yes I didnt..answer my dad's call.
I cried a bit, realizing that maybe just maybe if I called them they'll be sort of happy because there was someone who remembered them. Well I was not that someone because I didnt call them. I felt so selfish. I am so so so sorry, it was really my bad.
Maybe it is okay that I didn't answer dad's call. For sure I'll be going to hear his shaking voice again. I dont want to hear him cry that just breaks my heart. The very first time I heard him cry was on the phone when he told me that my grandpa was dead (that was last year) and now, my Auntie?
Years have been going really fast also taking people's lives have gone the same. What are you waiting for? Don't be like me. Cease the moment and tell your loved ones how much you really love and care for them. It's never too late, never.
I know I did really bad but what i'll be thinking now is, my Auntie is in God's hands I have nothing to worry. For she is in God's hands.
