Relationship lasts...fast

"Maybe part of loving is learning to let go" -The Wonder Years

"I never knew until that moment how bad it could hurt to lose something you never really had" -The Wonder Years

"Sometimes it's more easy to prove that the one you love doesn't love you rather than proving that person loves you." -Pulchri

I've been hearing so many news about ending relationships/break-ups either on my friends or the famous celebrities. Definitely, they have their own reasons why they decided to do so.

Why am I talking like this? Okay. Have you heard the news about Kris and James break up? of course you must've heard that. well I'm kinda affected about that, every time I hear about break ups I feel real sad that I wanted to bring their relationships back for I know it would be impossible. maybe because I wasn't in a relationsip for 4 years I'm easily carried away to people who are experiencing this. somehow it makes me feel unsick because I happened not to feel the same way as what these girls feel.

So this entry wont be about the Kris and James break up but what I'm about to share is about my uncle who left her wife. It sounds too straight forward but yes you read it right, he left her. I'm actually thinking if I should share this but I couldn't help myself to react and feel extremely sad about it. So I thought this could somehow lessen my worries T_T

It was last year since they've exchange vows to each other I thought after this nuptial is a happily ever after story ..but I was wrong. It's just last week when he left with no words. We dont know where in the hell he go. Her wife is trying to phone him but he's not answering her calls. She's in Italy right now and I can see on her Facebook status how homesick and hurt she was. I couldn't message or chat her because I know my words are not enough to heal her wounded heart and I'm too "young" to talk like this to her.

It hurts how it turned out to be like this. He shouldn't have marry her if he's not sure with his feelings. I hope I can comfort her now :'| I didnt realize this also could happen in real life, and to her. To God I pray.

Lord God,

I hope everything will be fine. Please, wherever my uncle is give him the conscience to go back to settle things up. Also I pray for my Aunt's condition, dont let her give up. There are gazillion blessings to look up to. Guide her. Strengthen her. Eveything will be fine, again I'm proclaiming it everything will going to be fine! Thank you Lord, God. In Jesus name I pray. Amen and amen.

Your daughter,

Pulchri

Naked

i found myself uncloth

with the one I loathe,

when will I escape..

from your herculean cape?,

i search for freedom

you offer serfdom,

shadows of travail

in love i always fail,

let me go..

Searching for a "man" that will be with you forever won't be easy. Its like a girl who bought a fake gold necklace that she didn't know at all. She was captivated by its physical features just like any other girls. She cant wait to fit those to her. So much so, she wears it everyday and realizing she's having rushes on her neck only to find out that these gold necklaces was sham. She didn't look into it's fine details because she was paying attention on what her bare eyes could only see.

As I reflect to our Social Anthropology topic, violence and abuse is just around the corner if women didn't choose the right man. We wouldn't want these to happen to us, of course! Solicitude about the details and length of time are the primary determinants to an authentic "man". I may sound a pro here but that just the 'I think' statements that I think.

Lez fight Women Violence!

I should have called

July 17, 2010 my Auntie Bernadette died.

I got the news from my sister, that was the moment when I didn't answer my Dad's call. I didn't answer it because I don't know what alibi to say.

Last wednesday I had a chat with my dad on the YM and he was telling me to call my grandmother in Bicol because she was sick and dad said "call them NOW" I told him I have no load and maybe tomorrow I get to call her and the rest of the relatives on the phone then tomorrow came my thought was only about school, school and school and so I didnt drop a call. I was actually planning to call them 2 days after dad commanded me but that was the night I received the news from my sister and that was the moment I didn't, yes I didnt..answer my dad's call.

I cried a bit, realizing that maybe just maybe if I called them they'll be sort of happy because there was someone who remembered them. Well I was not that someone because I didnt call them. I felt so selfish. I am so so so sorry, it was really my bad.

Maybe it is okay that I didn't answer dad's call. For sure I'll be going to hear his shaking voice again. I dont want to hear him cry that just breaks my heart. The very first time I heard him cry was on the phone when he told me that my grandpa was dead (that was last year) and now, my Auntie?

Years have been going really fast also taking people's lives have gone the same. What are you waiting for? Don't be like me. Cease the moment and tell your loved ones how much you really love and care for them. It's never too late, never.

I know I did really bad but what i'll be thinking now is, my Auntie is in God's hands I have nothing to worry. For she is in God's hands.